The Mississippi Adventure Begins

Tick, Tick....

Watching the clock-- I leave in a few hours for my Road trip. Honey and I, Nick is not coming. Oh well we can do this. Mom and Dad helped me pack the car last night, made me felt like I was 18 all over again. They are so worried and sweet, making sure I have enough of everything. Grandma is getting Honey B some bones today for her road trip as well. I need some time off, I need this break so bad. I need to see my brother and his family and have fun for a week with him. It will make me feel better.

I need something-- what else it is I don't know.

I put my applications in for 2 jobs in AL today-- is that what I need? I don't even know, just an opportunity I guess.

I have good friends here (thanks for the support Novy), and good family.

Something leaves me unsettled. Maybe someday I will find it.

Until then, let the search continue, And let the Adventure begin.

See YA'LL in a week or so.

Jen

Mississippi Adventure 2006 Part 4

Packing....

Honey has a bag, and a tote.
I have 3 bags and a box ! Yikes, mom's car is looking smaller and smaller. But we will make do and it will all fit. I have some errands to run tonight, get my pills filled and some sweets for the road and we are ready to go for tomorrow.

Nick may or may not be coming up-- it is a last minute decision from his boss and he will not know until this afternoon, bummer. Either way I do get to see him so no problem. He made a comment about Slaughtering Hogs this week so I am a little nervous about that, I am not a farm girl by any means. And I don't want to see Honey get eaten by anything either.

I am so excited for a trip- I have the mileage and gas money figured out as well.
Time is ticking, just one more day and I am off ! Southern Boys here I come !!

Did you know......

More than one million dogs have been adopted because of the fact that Benji was rescued from an animal shelter......

Just some doggie trivia for you !

Mississippi Adventure 2006 Part 3- Good News !

I just got a call from my baby brother in MS. He is going to be running a truck up next week, he works 1 week on and 1 week off at his job- 12 hour days. So that means he is going to be in WI and drive back down with me. I am so happy to have the company-- that will make the drive faster and we can drive straight thru. I have not seen him since August so it will be good to spend some time together. We are still trying to convince my Dad that he should come but he is being a really big grouch about it. I really don't know why. Anyway-- I just had to share. I am excited for my adventure to begin and the time off even if it is just a week. I am going to get packing this weekend and get the car situated as well. Make sure Honey B's kennel fits in there all folded up. Well that just made my day a whole lot better. Lets see how the rest goes. At least it is Wednesday already. TTFN.

Honey B 11 months Old

The Life eh? New pictures of my Honey B-- such a cutie !!

Doctors, Bloodwork, Pills, Confusion?

So I went to the doctor yesterday, I just cannot seem to get rid of this stuffy/runny nose. Turns out I have a sinus infection- woo hoo- liquid antibiotics for me, easier on the tummy. I also had some blood drawn since they always seem to want like 2 pints when I am there to check every level in my system from iron to hormones I swear. I like my doctor and all but I am ready to just go once a year and be done like every normal person. Normal- what is that. I have lost 125 pounds and according to my medical chart I am still considered Obese. Fine, I accept that-- Obese or not I need to be happy with who I am. So eventually I am going to be a happy Obese person. Can they add Happy in to my chart too? Yeah well enough of my smart comments. Not much else new here-- the bursts of energy are still coming and I don't mind them at all. I get a lot done after work, but I get so sick of the running around some nights.

I went to look at a few houses on Sunday. I think my mom is freaking out a little bit right now. Friday I decided to apply for two jobs thru my current company that are located down south. Yep about 800 miles away from home that is. She thinks I am full of it but I have my resume updated and I have to complete the application this week. My boss said it never hurt to show interest as well. There is nothing holding me here except family-- I know how important they are in my life but I need to consider me too. Maybe I need a change- maybe that is the feeling of unsettled I get and the panicking every time I look at a house. That is so permanent and grown up. Am I ready for all of that? Am I going to be completely happy in this town the rest of my life? Just another one of the many moods of me. My brothers were able to move ( maybe not without guilt) so why can't I? I worry about my parents but I need to take care of me. We will see what happens- I am trying to be optimistic here. Something has to go right for me this year I hope. Alright a few notes down and I have my head sort of cleared I think. Tonight Honey B and I are off to the Petsmart Howloween party-- should be fun !! Until next time......

Mississippi Adventure 2006 Part 2

Tick Tock-- The time is winding down and the trip will begin in 7 days. My mom suggested that I take my Dad with me, not a bad idea as long as we can get along for that long in the car. I am not sure if he is going or not. I know that me and the dog are fore sure and it will be a fun time. I have to pack and get things sorted this weekend. I know my mom has boxes for me to take down to the grandkids of course. I am excited to see my Baby brother since it has been since Sturgis ( august) and I want to see his new house. I need a break and a trip right now-- this will be so good for me. Too bad it takes 900 miles to make me have a happy thought. Open road here I come-- and I am already getting advice from Nick not to stop at rest areas after dark in certain areas- I am a big girl, I will be okay I tell him, besides I will have my attack dog Honey B with me.........to be continued.

Emotional Roller Coaster

The weekend started off good and then I felt like crap for a few days. Friday night was so much fun scrappin with Novy. I was so productive. So now it is Wednesday and I am still recovering. 6 months Post op from Gastric Bypass and I still have bad days with my stomach. I get so frustrated, and angry at myself. Then I feel worse. I hate missing work as I feel guilty that I am obligated to be there and I have a job to do. Here comes the whirlwind of emotions again.

What is wrong with me? Change of seasons? Lack of sunlight? Lack of socializing? It seems my mood is so low when I get home and usually it perks up when I see Honey B. But still I feel empty, lost and confused. Maybe it is time to review the medications and get back to the doctor again. Or maybe I am just having one of those moments in life where I am trying to find what makes me happy again. Happy? the word itself it overrated. I think I am just content. I know I am stressing about money and that always puts me in a mood. I want something this year in my life to go right, I want to buy a house, pay off my personal debts and get out. Can that happen for me? Just once please let things go my way.

Speaking of socializing-- I have no interest is going out to the bars, drinking or even going anywhere. Thank goodness I have friends that keep inviting me. I really have to find myself again before this gets out of hand. So I try to keep my mind off of things. At work that is easy since I am so busy. But when I get home I find myself cleaning my parents house, doing laundry and making supper to stay distracted. I enjoy helping out and I enjoy the extra energy but I would to use on me for awhile.

Please if there is a god in heaven, let this house thing and finance thing work itself out. And let my mind calm down and let me find the sparkle back in my life. It is there, I just buried it again. And in the meantime I need to depend on friends for awhile to keep me sane. My turn.

Okay I feel little better-- that has been bottled up a few weeks now.
Maybe all I needed was a BLOG. :)

Big Sigh...................

Mississippi Adventure 2006 Part 1

Well I have decided to take a trip to Visit my Little brother in Mississippi. So in about 3 weeks I will going on a road trip with my dog to head south for a week. I am not sure if I am flying or not but I plan on going either way.

My brother recently got married in Sturgis, SD this year at Bike week. His Wife has two twins- boy and a girl that are 6. They are adorable and great kids. The countdown at their house has begun for my trip there. That made me feel good and got me excited to see them as well. So they are also have a cookout/ picnic when I get there as well since her family and my Brother's friends want to meet me. I feel kind of like a celebrity heading for the south !! I have been to visit him only 1 other time since he moved 4 years ago. I need to make it more of an annual trip to see him since he comes back home so much as well. It is only fair. So we will see how the planning and packing go soon. Let the countdown begin....

October....Fall weather and falling leaves.....

Well it is that time of year again. The crisp cold air is upon us and the trees are changing colors getting ready for the next season. The nice thing about living in the Midwest is the changing of seasons, it helps you get mentally prepared for what is to come as well.

I love Fall, the air is so clean and the temperature is a bit more tolerable as well. Since my Gastric bypass I am not so tolerant of the cold weather so we will see how this winter goes. I already have my flannel comforter and sheets on the bed if that tells you anything.

My Friend KC had her Gastric Bypass surgery last Tuesday. I was so worried about her I gave myself a belly ache thinking about it all day. All went well with her and she is at home healing just fine. I wish her the best and hopefully she will have a good recovery. Well I am down 118 pounds and 11 pants sizes- how crazy. I think in the last month it has finally hit me. People say it is now pretty obvious as well. So I still look in the mirror and wonder who that is. But not much has changed to me so there is still a glimpse.

My Dog Honey and I are going through Training class. So far we have learned: sit, down, take it, leave it, drop it- and some very good walking skills. I really like the trainer and I value her opinion. Honey is doing good and so far we are learning to listen as planned.

Not much new in my life right now- just trying to get my finances all straight so I can get serious about buying a house and getting on with it. I get so afraid of being all grown up but I know I have to do this soon. I cannot believe it is only Wednesday. It feels like the longest week of my life, I need a quiet weekend of no running around and that is exactly what I have planned. Last 2 weekends have been hectic with Oktoberfest and a Scrap a thon in Fairmont, MN.

Okay back to work, break is up.