Wrong side of the Bed.....

I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, but wait my bed is in a corner.
I cannot think of any other excuse for being in a bad mood.
I am not tired, or am I? Stressed out-- HELL YEAH.

All I could think about all night is money, the holidays, the house, my parents, and lastly me.

Stressed out. I just need to remember to take it one day at a time I guess. I sent out some letters to friends about taking a chance on me-- like an investment, lets hope I hear something back. I know it is asking alot but the repayment terms plus interest are all there and I want to do this- with my life- I need to do this to move on and up.

Sorry if I am whining, but I have to do it somewhere.

I am now trying to find my definition of Happy- what does it mean anymore? I just can never settle on it I swear. Maybe that is part of it. Maybe this is normal- trying to always achieve or try something new. Maybe that is my happy. Maybe no or maybe so? Geez, I am confusing myself. I wish life was more simple, although the simple things still seem to keep me content too.

I get to scrapbook this weekend- I have so many projects to do for Christmas it will be a good time to get these done. I am trying to have holiday cheer and all that crap as well. Gosh, I hope my my family does not disappoint me again. I need my brothers still more than they need me, but I am just not sure how to get that through to them. I don't want to give up but I am. Again I am not a bottle of glue that can keep everyone together.

Okay, okay-- stressed, and whiney-- I have to go get some coffee and nice pills.

Happy Hump day.